oh..
ah..
oh..
chipped a tooth
lost all sensation [and hair] on my knees
took a bite out of my tongue
scratched my face all over
burned a toe
the show has become quite the reality show.
finally it ends tonight.
then I will put on 300 lbs.
too much coffee = shaky hands
too much coffee + cigarettes = butt butt butt
some soup = good
grrrrrrrrr i hate mornings.
i’m completely useless before 5pm.
as soon as the show is over in 10 days
i’ll pick up the pieces and detox, fast,
cleanse, rinse the insides out, polish the skin.
must take care of the old body.
Oh no I think I caught a chill.
coming down with the flu?
I can’t move my neck left or right,
my joints ache and I shiver.
mmm soup? Yes.
Lately I find that my mind wonders when I’m onstage and I suddenly remember old -really old- dreams, vividly and in great detail, old memories from my childhood and early years in London, insignificant details all of a sudden spring to mind. I’m glad because my memory is so bad; I have no real recall of my lifeline so far. Today I remembered a dream I had years and years ago about a house on an island that I wanted to build. it would be all white, on top of a bare, rocky island and there would be a labyrinth around it to make it near impossible to get to it unless you had a map. The house would have many random and oddly shaped openings for the wind to blow through and make hissing sounds and a lot of running water inside. I’d be blasting the soundtrack of Vampires Lobos, getting ass faced with wine and dance around naked.
Oh it’s my name day today. Must remember to bring a carton of Kinder eggs to the theater for treats.
my body aches so much, i need a hot bath in my AWESOME Gucci bubble bath.
and every day is the same day different faces with no name places i’ve never been before
oh and yes my mid-life crisis is still full blown.
mataiotis mataiotitwn ta panda mataiotis.
| wah, I’m beat. Yesterday was the confounded Saturday double show and by 9pm as the 2nd show was about to begin I was beyond exhausted. The show ends Feb 1st and I will both miss it and feel relieved. Been listening to Destiny’s Child a lot backstage and I shake my ass and keep merry. The cold is so harsh lately and the ac is on 24/7. The cats are loving it. purrrrrEktoras will shoot his new film on 35mm after all, which is a huge victory over his producer who was cutting corners to pocket the dough. Cunt. The festive days are bloody over so the lazy ass morons of this country have no excuses left and will have to do their jobs. Nobody wants to work in this country. |
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*yawn* aaah.. took the the first dump of 2004 was and it was so pleasurable. I’ll take that as a good sign. finally the fucking ‘holidays’ are over. I can’t believe I actually danced at a bar last night being 100% sober. Back to doing the show again tonight. About time too. |
