Reunited with one of favorite childhood films.

I set up an email acount that I email messages to myself. A new low (or is it high?) in loneliness.
About to go to dinner, with a huge headache.
I must ask mmhhmm to send me mmmhmm.

No no. Greeks are such crude, backward, primitively sentimental, perpetually dishonest, unintelligently competitive and fundamentally lazy people, they deserved much worse and they will receive it. Stfu losers and get the fuck out.

Implosion.

Right about now I start feeling like Imma cut a bitch. Or maybe a fire.

Filming is progressing,
relishing every second.
The mountain is lonely.
The Australians are lovely.

Woke up early. It was dead silent and there were clouds atop the mountains.
Then, breakfast of champions, eggs and wifi.

We flew to the location today. Day 1 for me on Dead Europe. Working with Tony is an immense pleasure. Staying in the quaintest chalet. The vegetables and the cheese are orgasmic in this village. It’s 9pm and already in bed.

i’m officially giving up trying to be good.
I’m not, never been. It’s not me.
Deal.

In a strange turn of events, a peculiar twist of fate,
I’m now living in NY and this has occurred:

i wonder how obvious it is.

I miss my friend.

this movie breaks my heart.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qbkw6LDr4Pc

one day, one day, imma find that ideal cave on that perfect mountain and imma stay there.

4am / 6th

It’s all just a little bit of history, repeating.

Running around town making arrangements, heart dry as salt, muscles following orders, words mostly rehearsed, feelings not optional.

Uncle Louie has good fake ice cream.

You’d think it otherwise, but it’s mind blowingly lonely.

As per usual, playing a part, while I’m playing a part, as I’m playing a part.

End of day at Pier 59 studios. Shooting for Harper’s Bazaar, Jeff Koons photographed the story, for the September issue.

Brooklyn is so handsome, in a Once Upon a Time in America kind of way.

shit help me, i will downsize, taper, streamline, shpring clean the fuck out of this motherfucker.

I’m in the latest Crush.

“..My name is Victoria Winters. My journey is just beginning. A journey that I hope will open the doors of life to me, and link my past with my future… A journey that will bring me to a strange and dark place, to the edge of the sea, high atop Widows’ Hill, to a house called Collinwood… A world I’ve never known, with people I’ve never met. People who are still only shadows in my mind, but who will soon fill the days and nights of my tomorrows…”

i totally miss me.

outtakes from a Marie Claire magazine interview shoot
[clicks to color]