how can I be so painfully bored of people and yet so painfully lonely.

It’s hard to be tender
It’s hard to stay open
When you’re dizzy with anger
And your dreams have been broken

Lying with you ‘neath the sky
The country is so green in the light
Loving you’s the key to my survival

Now, you have gone away
The skies turned grey, the rivers froze
I remember how you held me close

And i shiver

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yk97Of-2Ea8

Tis the season to pretend that the lack of family life in NY, bares no consequence for my crumbling mental and emotional decay.